While organizing my schedule for the week, the thought occurred to me that I put on too much in the way of projects and ideas I want to accomplish. I ask myself “Will this move me forward?”. I ask myself this because I tend to be more hamster-like, where I run on a wheel without going anywhere.
I really want to go somewhere. I want success in my endeavors, and I want to accomplish what I set out to do.
If I take on too much, then its very much like throwing more than one ball to a dog, who can’t catch any of them.
This lends to the idea of needing to make decisions, which I’m not exactly good at; I’m a Libra after all, and we’re terrible at making decisions. Or, at least, that’s my excuse.
I try to see both sides of the fence, weigh the consequences, and try to make the ‘right choice’, but end up getting my panties in a bind because I don’t want to make a ‘wrong decision’. Then I freeze and do nothing at all. It is like getting stuck in a decision loop.
Sometimes ‘freewriting’ helps. I set a timer for ten minutes and start writing about the problem, with the focus on finding solutions. Sometimes this works, or at least gets me started on decision making.
I prioritize my list. If you follow the ‘eat the frog’ tip, the rest of day becomes easier to deal with.
If the first thing you do each morning is to eat a live frog, you can go through the day with the satisfaction of knowing that that is probably the worst thing that is going to happen to you all day long!
Even with that in mind, I’m torn between what I want to do and what I ought to do. Sometimes its tough to discern even that because the kid in me rationalizes all the time. For example: “But playing video games help inspire my writing, so of course I should play the Xbox!”
Distractions often lead to more decision making. The quandary of ‘want vs need’, where I want to do something because I feel inspired and motivated, but then my ‘to do’ list seems so dull but necessary in comparison.
By the end of the day, after crossing out my list, after adding the additional unplanned things I’ve done, I’m happy to say I get lots done. I’m just not 100% sure any of it gets me anywhere in Life.